Sep 29, 2011


After going through the session with C.L. Goh last Sunday, the final part of his talk really struck me as he went to share on about how his father had such strong filial piety compared to today's standards:- that he gathered his entire first month's salary job after graduation, traveled all the way back to his hometown, just to offer it as a gratitude offering to his own beloved father - only to know that he just passed away earlier that day due to diabetes.

Couldn't feel anymore ashamed of myself, of the times fighting with my own dad about having more freedom and being so stubborn listening to his constant lectures of striving to be more serious in my studies. To think about all the hurts I've done to him, even though he doesn't even show a hint of it on his face. No doubt it's true that he really sacrificed so much to raise each and everyone of us the best he can - in the best he believed it would be. I felt as if I'm one of the most horrible son one could ever had after listening such a testimony.

The visit to Shelter this Saturday actually do speak a lot in many ways and I do hope that I can encourage the Youth to go in the perspective of compassion and empathy - to constantly seek to show them the love of Christ. They did not ask for many things that happened in their lives and it really bothers me, frankly speaking to hear people say - "So sad/ Poor thing/ thankfully it didn't happen to me."
"Remember those in prison as if you were their fellow prisoners, and those who are mistreated as if you yourselves were suffering."
Hebrews 13:3
Help them to trust in the Lord that their parents need Christ in their lives, to see beyond the fault and see the need. Allow them to meet Christ through the conduct of our lives and not treat the whole thing as a "visit" to get done and over with. Youth was never about the activities, it's all about bringing souls closer to Christ!

Pray for wisdom and to be sensitive towards the Spirit's prompting. It's time to open your horizon.. more than just "Me, myself & I". What C.L. Goh said is true, that the maturity rate of today is way behind compared to those from many years ago. That would mean as a 13 year old, you're pretty old enough to see more than just your own needs but also the needs of others.

After visiting the Shelter a few times myself, they know whether you're visiting with a sincere heart or not. They know whether you really care or you're just there because you "had" to be there. Without having the idea of parents taking care to the best of their welfare and providing them all the love they deserve as a child, it's not surprising they'd be easily offended when you just go there to fool around and treat the whole thing as a joke. They'd rather not have us around then!

But once you show them that you're sincere, they'll open up to you. They show you things that you never thought they would and they'd seek you for help when they feel that there's no one else to turn to - precisely show them the way to who our Lord and Saviour is.

- daryl 's u n d a e' heng

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Sep 22, 2011

Jesus to you I cling

“Although all shall be offended, yet will not I.” Mark 14 : 29
Does this line seem very familiar to you?

Remember Simon Peter? One of Jesus closer disciples who is always the first to speak and in this incident, he was proudly proclaiming to Jesus that even if everyone were to deny you, I, Simon Peter will never deny you.

There are times in my life that I’ve prayed to God, made promises and telling Him that I’ll be closer to Him by upping my spiritual standards - be it the duration of time I decided to spend praying to Him, fasting or studying Scripture. Or maybe something different like I once shared before in the blog, to eat simple by spending not more than Rm10 a day on food.

As for the others, it could be something like, “I’ll pray before youth committedly.” Or “Making sure I give thanks before my meals”.

And just like how Simon peter fell hard on his face as Jesus told him right after ,
“ And Jesus saith unto him, verily I say unto thee, That this day, even in this night, before the cock crow twice, thou shalt deny me thrice.”
Imagine, Jesus even stressed

“That this day” He didn’t just stop there, he went to add again

“even in this night..”

He knows how quick sometimes we make our promises without understanding the full weight of its cost. I personally don’t think God wants to put our zeal for Him down.

Just so you know, Peter wasn’t lying or exaggerating when he told Jesus he wouldn’t deny Him. If you understand his temperament (he's a sanguine) and the context of it, he really meant it but he was overconfident that he could do it regardless the situation may turn out. Just like how Peter meant when he answered Jesus’ question :
“And He saith unto them, But whom say ye I am? And Peter answereth and saith unto Him, Thou art the Christ.” Mark 8 : 29
Peter answered because he truly worshipped Jesus and had no doubt about it despite many rumors that were already heavily spreading around. That either Jesus was Elijah (the people then were expecting the spirit of Elijah to appear before the Messiah, look into Malachi 4 : 5-6, or that the spirit of John the Baptist was risen in Jesus, or that He is a fraud, a man who uses the power of belzebub as claimed by the noted and well “respected” Pharisees then)

And so I caught myself in the similar situation. I really meant what I told God I would do, but I end up failing Him, not only failing Him but failing Him miserably!

And I felt what Peter felt right after he realized Jesus words came to pass.
“And Peter remembered the word of Jesus, which said unto him, Before the cock crow, thou shalt deny me thrice. And he went out, and wept bitterly.” Matthew 26 : 75
The reason I didn’t quote from Mark is because I felt Matthew describe the sorrow more detailed, the word “bitterly” wasn’t in Mark. Have you ever cried bitterly? It’s very different from your usual petty cry over some small squabbles or silly arguments.

It’s a deep sense of shame, guilt and remorse.

And worse of all being to be guilty of, God Himself.

Sometimes I’ll be so ashamed and sorrowful about it, I just don’t how to face God again up to a few days long. But I realize that I need to return to my Heavenly Father in all boldness and in tears to ask for forgiveness, and that He would let me try again and again until I’ve grown.

I hope by sharing this, those of you who are reading this who once on a spiritual high has come to a slump due to certain failures may be encouraged. Don’t turn back just because you may think either it’s so tiring to keep failing over or the fight is just not worth it. Even in the darkest moments, keep clinging onto Jesus and never let Him go.
“ And Jesus said unto him, No man , having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God” Luke 9 : 62
If Peter had decided to wail in deep sorrow and walk away from Jesus ever since that day, he wouldn’t have been the one of the great twelve who wrote 2 doctrinal epistles of 1 Peter & 2 Peter.

The transformed Peter who was once spoke foolishly at times, expressed his zeal without weight has been the now the person who has convert thousands and even people who went under his shadow was healed!

Likewise, I am also encouraged that besides my failure to keep my promises and prayers to Him, as I walk my spiritual journey from day to day, I know at the end of it, the many great abundant blessings God has kept installed for me shall come as I strain on forward, clinging unto God.

-Gary Heng

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Sep 14, 2011

A Refined Perspective of Change

Change is inevitable in our lives. Of course there are changes that we welcome with open arms and changes that we struggle to accept. Why do we struggle to accept change? I think it’s because we are habitual beings. When we become accustomed to our surroundings, we tend to become comfortable and most of the time complacent. Complacency can sometimes be dangerous because we tend to not strive for better things and higher standards in our lives. The same can be said of our Spiritual lives.

God places changes and different experiences in our lives so that we may grow spiritually and grow closer to Him. As I said, we sometimes embrace the change but I think most of the time we resist the change. I once shared on my blogpost that I was really eager to go overseas for my studies but to my dismay I ended up going to Singapore which was not my first choice. As most of you know, after being disappointed by the college in Singapore, I returned after only three months.

The three months I was there was such a whirlwind for me. I was really excited and hopeful to gain better education in Singapore because I was fed up with my college in Kuala Lumpur. However, ironically after only three months I found myself contemplating returning to KL to be back at the college which I desperately wanted to get out of. The whole time I was going through this I asked God “What are you teaching me?” “ Am I missing the big picture?”
Romans 5:3-5 King James Version (KJV) And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience; And patience, experience; and experience, hope: And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
When I decided to return, I realize that I had become a lot more matured and that my life is in God’s hands. A spiritual mentor once told me that we must always challenge ourselves to get out of our comfort zone so that we may experience growth in our spiritual lives. On hindsight, I think the stay in Singapore helped me depend on Him more. I found myself praying more regularly and spending more quality time with God. When you are out of the comfort of your home, you will tend to feel very lonely and that is the time you truly learn to depend on God because there is no on else around you that you can depend on. I also learned to be more independent and found that I could do things I thought I could not, with God’s strength.
Romans 8:28 King James Version (KJV) And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
Having said all these, we should learn to rest in the knowledge that even though there are always changes in our lives there is one constant that is God’s love for us. Regardless of good or bad changes, we can always depend on our Lord because everything is in His control.
Hebrews 13:8 King James Version (KJV) Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever.
- Xin-Yi

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Sep 7, 2011

Wake Up Call?

Once in a while, through the weariness and strenuous Youth work, I'm reminded of how much the previous batch of Youth Committee members put in their effort to build His Youth and that how much I've taken for granted.. although not entirely. Much of the fruition today is partially from their efforts!

However, I do constantly hope to see God's TTDIGC Youth to strive in furthering His Kingdom and always remind each other to not head towards the dangerous state of "Luke-warmness". One way to know is that - when was the last time you ask or were asked to be in prayer for one another? Or maybe perhaps, to encourage one another to gather and sing praises to Him? To share the good news that souls are saved?

Matthew 9:37

Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.
And so we're questioned as disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ, are we really putting our hands to the plow and collect the harvest the Lord has intended?

A while back John wrote his post A Call to serve and it's really true, the Lord does command us to serve! He isn't requesting, suggesting or begging -
Matthew 16:24

Then Jesus said to his disciples, "If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross and follow me."
This war calls for more soldiers to the field and each of us are accountable to that Call of Duty. No doubt God doesn't need us to do His will but it is His blessing to us that we helm up that very task in our spiritual journey!

So 5 years from now, where do you see yourself in TTDIGC Youth?

- daryl 's u n d a e' heng

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